Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 
Ugh... This is me venting a bit, so I'll add a CW, as it may mean that this Toot will have be babbling a bit too long winded... 🫣
Here it goes...
Lately, I've been struggling with my anxiety and feelings of being inadequate and annoying.
I feel like people are tired of my long babbling toots. I feel like they're tired of my silly replies. I know I'm not the best with commenting, but I've been trying... 😔 But it just feels like people avoid me and my silly emotions.
And I know this is probably a combination of my hormones, a depression, a disturbance of good sleep and decent routine, that's all making me feel this way.
And this is in no way aimed at anyone in particular, this is me venting my stupid thoughts... 😔 But these thoughts do affect how I am online, and I want to be honest about my struggles.
I don't want to bore anyone. I want to be supportive. Caring. Understanding. And I guess, sometimes I may try too hard and overdo it. Or I may write the wrong things. Or maybe people expect me to comment and then I don't, and maybe they're disappointed in me...
I'm fighting all these emotions. All these silly ideas. All these worries. And I guess I'm making things worse for myself. I'm taking things the wrong way because I can't filter them properly. Because I am just a mess... Maybe also because I'm trying too hard..?
So...
Sorry if I may have written a reply that caused you discomfort. I'm sorry if I have been too needy, too wanting, too much of it all...
I wish I could understand my feelings better. I wish I could understand social bits better. But I've never been too good with that. I could say it's maybe just my AuDHD making me weird... 😔 Maybe it's just all me all the way...
Ugh...
I may lurk today. Or maybe I'll try to overcompensate and Toot way too much...
Again, this is my brain struggling with making sense of my silly emotions. This is not meant at anyone in a negative way. But it is affecting me, so I thought I just should share it. Even though it's a bit scary to admit that I'm struggling so much at the moment. Gotta love the anxiety... 
Fankoos for reading all this way. I really appreciate it.
Catch you later, I guess... 
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Rachel McDove
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Darling soul, emotions are never silly, your feelings are important! I know it's hard, especially with autism making it so much more difficult to understand what we're feeling and why, but shaming ourselves for what we feel doesn't help.
I love your posts and replies, you really brighten my days! You're so sweet and kind and the world NEEDS that right now 💜💜💜
Pixy's Journey
in reply to Rachel McDove • • •Awwwww 🥰 that means so much to me!
I just hate it when my mind does things like this to me and my emotions... 😔
Fankoos for your kind words! I always appreciate your replies and I try to engage with your toots when I see them as well. 😊
I am really touched by your kind words!
Rachel McDove
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Pixy's Journey
in reply to Rachel McDove • • •It's definitely not fair... 😔
Fankoos for the hugs! They were very needed and very welcome.
Cazimodo Creative
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Pixy's Journey
in reply to Cazimodo Creative • • •Maj1 THE Neuro Spicy Squirrel
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Hey Cynni 🤗🥰
Know that your a special kinda nut & I love sharing my TL with you! 😊🫶
🖖
Pixy's Journey
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Looking for explanations…
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Yes, you are trying too hard, because that’s what we do.
No, you’re not boring us.
Give yourself a big hug from me.
Pixy's Journey
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And yeah, I guess it's what we do...
And yay, glad I'm not boring you! That's good to know.
Kevin Davy
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Just keep being you and doing what you're doing. It's all any of us can do.
❤️
Pixy's Journey
in reply to Kevin Davy • • •Awww fankoos 💜
I have no idea either... But I just felt like I was doing everything wrong, like I was upsetting people or boring them, and due to past trauma, I'll go into an anxiety attack where I just trash myself for doing nothing right... 😔 It's very self destructive and painful. That's why I wanted to share it. Because it has such an impact on me.
Fankoos 🫶🏻 again. And yeah I'll keep going and hope that I'll do OK enough. 😊