i hurt my firends with the things i say and not only do i not mean to, but i don't even know that it's happened until months later when they tell me because something finally makes them angry enough to lash out at me. Then i'm left confused and in tears because i hurt someone and have no idea what i could have done differently. And no one ever seems willing or able to tell me what i should have done differently. This has been happening to me all my life and i don't know why or how to change it and i hate myself for it.