Surrender To Absurdity
© Surazeus
2025 03 30

While driving my car on the Nowhere Road,
I feel dull ache of ennui in my heart,
and then I know with ironic detachment
I should have made peace with absurdity
of human existence on this vast world
before I began my trip to Wonderland.

Parking my old car in the empty lot,
I wander on shore of the frozen lake
to contemplate fragile impermanence
which characterizes beauty of Nature,
till feeling of annoyance numbs my heart,
so I grin with satisfaction at Death.

Yet yellow butterfly with fragile wings
flutters with delicate calm of respect
among white petals on the long black bough,
which makes me think about how energy
springs to life again after hiemal death,
blooming with beauty of peaceful hope.

I savor oppressive cold of gray skies
on fields frozen hard in bitter despair
so long I come to find in misery
grim comfort at harsh ugliness of death
till I see beauty in rancid decay
and treasure horror of the lifeless tree.

Alone in stillness of the leafless woods
where grayness saturates the mindless soil,
I feel the sudden flash of evening light
when the sun advancing across stern hills
pierces my eyes with sheen of desire
as trees explode in quiet poof of green.

The golden path of silence glows awake
in winding casualness of sly amusement
among the mulberry bushes of fate,
so I surrender to absurdity
that beauty gleams within the rugged world
with urgent innocence of honest fear.

My hungry eyes consume beauty of Earth
with aching ennui that something more
beyond blank nothingness of death may lure
my heart to believe our souls might live on,
but sweet beauty of this horrible lie
would trap me in despair at suffering.

My conscious sense of self is radiant glow
conjured by chemical functions of hope
from flashing neurons of my dreaming brain,
so I savor ennui of this vibrant hour
because I know my animating soul
will vanish from this strange world when I die.

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Orpheus wanders alone among the crowds of families enjoying the rides in the evening light of the amusement park called Wonderland.

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