Face I Lost Somewhere
© Surazeus
2025 12 29

Mindlessly wandering nowhere alone,
I seek to avoid the dramatic play
where my life is endangered by contempt
when people attack my right to exist
to keep myself safe from psychotic hate
strangers project at my innocent heart.

Assertive mirror of my flashing mind
fractures in fragments of strange memories
where I am running away from the crowd
who throws rocks at illusion of my soul
which vibrates across spectrum of despair
to dance with shadows of arrogant flames.

Confined in boundaries of my sudden being,
I cherish optimistic view of fate
while running nowhere in the shadow land
to find my secret face I lost somewhere
by breathing deeply grief of sharpened faith
till I fall laughing at absurdity.

Yet still I roam expansive space of thought
to savor nothingness of silver light
my secret moon beams deep inside my mind
at warm embrace of terror I despise
who loves me with indifferent lust for death,
alone in wind-swept garden of delight.

Long unaware what color my mind tastes
from granite suffering based on sunset rage,
I sell false guilt that wounds my stone-hard heart
because I never will confess my wrong,
unmoored by laughter no one dares express
while searching for naive divinity.

I never listen to the ash-gray sky
except to fracture wide my heart to cry
with heart-enchanting melody of faith
that chronicles weird journey of my soul
as nameless migrant lost in Neverland
far from the home where my mother still cooks.

When ardent pulse of hundred billion stars
inspires performance of necrotic rites
I feel my true face disappear as God
who stares at me from flashing thunder cloud
as gleam of lightning that excites my heart
so I sing solemn hymn of loyalty.

Each time I fall adamantine walls
I grow in skill at spreading cautious wings
to swerve away from self-destructive fate
so I can dance with Dionysian joy
on swirling clouds of frantic energy
that scatter my atoms across the void.

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Orpheus leads billions of souls from the Otherworld of Despair to dance with Dionysian joy in the waste land of bombed-out homes.

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