Perform My Authentic Self
© Surazeus
2026 01 05

The more I perform my authentic self
by expressing strange aspects of my being,
the more I find in shadows of my heart
different versions of Me I want to play,
till I integrate their opposing aspects
in one whole self revealed by many masks.

The mad king withers in the castle tower
while clutching book of stories to his chest,
but stares at young girl dancing with the flower
around blind teacher in the cemetery
where blackbirds talk about philosophy
with wingless angels eating apple pies.

The sad priest lingers in the tangled garden
beneath marble statue of Mother Mary,
who cradles baby Jesus in cold arms,
and listens to the young girl with the flower
sing haunting melody with clarity
designed to resurrect our souls from death.

The humble carpenter beside the river
gathers swords and shields with indifferent hands
from mangled corpses of barons and knights
while ghosts explain the secret of success
revealed by windows in cathedral walls
refracting sunlight through our fragile bodies.

Death gazes through the window of my heart
to count the countless masks of secret selves
that shimmer in the ancient gallery
with gentle madness of the golden truth
preserved in psychic code of fairy tales
providing framework for our brave lifestyle.

The honest shipwright with the broken lyre
copies sea map that Waldseemueller drew
depicting strange land of America
framed by universal cosmography
so I can return home to Avalon
where Mary sings in Glastonbury Tor.

The divine savior with celestial wings
pilots hot air balloon across the sky
above small bands of hunter-gatherers
who gasp when bright angel descends on wings
and teaches them to plant crops and write letters,
then ascends to Heaven in flashing disk.

Every mask in the ancient gallery,
which I purchase from the Many-Faced God,
represents ancestral soul of my genes
who generates new life before they die
because they all wake in my consciousness,
contending till I morph them in One Me.

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Orpheus explores every world of the multiverse to meet the many different versions of his authentic self till they all merge into his One Me.

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