Obsessive Eyes Of History
© Surazeus
2026 05 10

The random events of my mundane life
occur so far outside standard template
of socially accepted stereotypes,
that I can only chronicle each phase
without application of ordered stamps
beyond frame of meaningful narrative.

No conceptual meaning assigned by fate
could be extracted from those bizarre scenes
if I detail each particular fact
against normal code of significance
contrary to nuance of legal aim
that motivates my actions to survive.

Each maladjusted purpose I assert
reverses message of psychic intent
with imprecise explanation of hope
beyond general drift of my argument,
which is to say I could never attest
to divine gist of consensual design.

No story ever told in time-bound books,
nor shows presented on the glowing screen,
ever represents my experience
in typical sequence of measured scenes
that model paradigm of social tales
contrived by fabulists of absurd myths.

I will not compose memoir of my life,
spinning meaningful narrative of fate
from random assemblage of anecdotes
that highlight examples of clumsiness
when I interact with people in scenes
scripted to humiliate me with farce.

Each time I stumble into social scene,
where fearful people wearing bitter masks
direct burlesque of taunting disrespect
that stars their caricature of my soul,
I perform contrary to game they expect
that exposes their hate through travesty.

Thus I exit absurd drama they cast
by vacating stage of their haughty pride
and leave them to strut with false dignity
before obsessive eyes of history
that devours esteem of arrogant fools
with terrible curse of soul-twisting fame.

Long trapped in stories other people write,
unwilling antagonist of their heroism,
I leap from tower of religious faith
to soar on urgent wings of Icarus
till I fall singing in Ocean of Doom
and rise reborn on island of my heart.

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Orpheus welcomes Icarus to temple of prophecy on Island of Avalon where they operate theater showing tragedy and comedy to everyone for free.

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