Each Time I Lose Myself
© Surazeus
2026 06 01

I find myself each time I lose myself
so I run across the waste land of the heart
and leap abyss of nothingness to soar
laughing at the crystal moon of faith
which vanishes to mist as I approach
so I fall back into my throbbing head.

I find myself each time I lose myself
so I dance laughing on the sands of time
with one hand waving free to grasp the wind
and scatter seeds of flowers so they sprout
as rainbow angels wearing human masks
who dive for memories in sea of dreams.

I find myself each time I lose myself
so I stand blindly on cliff of despair
to map the ancient streets of Neverland
where faceless children search for Kingdom Come
that slips away in cold of morning dawn
at flap of angel wings above my tomb.

I find myself each time I lose myself
so I strum Lyre of Mercury with sass
to chant psychotic spell of eyeless clouds
that beam elusive riddle of the mind
when I chase shadow of the ragged clown
who wants to preach salvation without faith.

I find myself each time I lose myself
so I explore fog-swirling ruins of time
where zombies gather in the Church of Glass
to worship Vampire King with Crown of Thorns
who drinks Blood of the Lamb in Holy Grail
to resurrect our characters from books.

I find myself each time I lose myself
so I drive piston-engine time machine
on winding mountain Road of Honesty
to find Cave of Illusions in the Alps
where God-Eye Diamond of my divine heart
beams first flash that flares forth from the big bang.

I find myself each time I lose myself
so I write epic of philosophers
depicting heroes who quest for the truth
when they perform in circus of the mind
amazing acrobatics with weird words
that formulate atomic principles.

I find myself each time I lose myself
so I decide to run for president
to rebuild institutions through respect,
constructing from ruins of America
state of equal rights as Zarathia
where everyone eats from the Tree of Life.

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Orpheus wins election for President of the United States of Zarathia because he finds himself after he loses himself in the endless maze of myths.

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