Anguish Of False Guilt
© Surazeus
2025 10 28

Quaint heart tortured by anguish of false guilt,
I watch as billions of people contest
over who can eat spirit of the land
that blooms in crops transforming light and rain,
and seek to disconnect my hungry soul
so I savor beauty before I die.

Ignoring oneiralgia in my heart
to dwell in sweet utopian fantasy
that billions of god-believers long for
as socialist Heaven in paradise,
I edit geospatial data files
that depict true features of our real world.

This Heaven, that philosophers have preached
as ideal version of cities on Earth,
presents farm estate as communal space
where every person breathing soul of life
is equal in their social-justice rights
where we do what we will, if we harm none.

Yet real cities of nations on this Earth
are power pyramids based firm on wealth,
arranged in hierarchies of social roles
where farmers and crafters, who make with hands,
support group managers and warriors
who work under one ruler-judge of all.

Humans arrange governments of their states
around one leader who manages all
by setting rules that control how we act
as we create food and goods from the ground
through construction and destruction of things
which runs our world food-production machine.

When I am shocked by anguish of false guilt,
I pause to analyze how I perform
acts of my hands to create or destroy,
then I swerve from destructive deeds of fear
in fierce defense from attacks of blind greed
so my actions create more than destroy.

When I see how my actions destroy things
guilt flashes vision to arrest advance
so I can readjust progress of change
to minimize loss of potential stock
with bold solution to produce new wares
designed to maximize our fruitful growth.

We design persona of the Good Leader,
whom we idealize as concept of God,
based on tales of leaders, prophets and kings,
who have ruled empires the past ten thousand years
by using guilt to rehabilitate
people who choose to create good with love.

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Orpheus guides visitors through History Museum of Zarathia to present all the great leaders of human history, depicting their failures and successes, as manifestations of God.

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