It started since Dec 2024, one month later, Jan 2025 - bursts of fragments arrived at my head and new chapters were born. This is however a process accompanied by incomprehensible pain because I'm emotionally numb at this stage of my life (though it's not the only burden in this matter), it's like trying to create mixtures of colors as a colorblind, it's hard to make a good one when I can no longer perceive what's good. Feb 2025 - I'm stuck at one tiny part. It's difficult to be in this situation analogous to building a sand castle in the middle of a violent storm.