A journey with big changes lays behind me. Iโve reached my destination, which I hope will be my last one. Or at least one for a long time to comeโฆ The journey isnโt over yet, but part of the traveling is. Now, Iโm in place and I need to make things better as I stay a whileโฆ
Of course Iโm talking about the move that happened last year. In December 2023, I got about 22 hours to decide if I wanted to accept a (rental) house, that I never thought to have a chance with. On July 1st I got the keys. The weekend of 13/14 July, sweet friends helped me a shitload! ๐ As they helped me move most of my things from Cuijk to Herpen. Andโฆ Thatโs where I am now. Butโฆ
Was it worth it? ๐ค
Everybody that has moved houses before knows how stressful such a situation may be. It can be even more challenging when itโs โjust youโ that needs to make all the arrangements. When thereโs no partner that can support and take over. I wasnโt really planning on moving, as I figured I never would be offered one. I just wanted to see โhow far I would getโ. Well, all the way, apparently. ๐
Moving to another town, in another municipality, to a place I didnโt really knowโฆ It scared the bajeezus out of meโฆ
Those that have been following the blog since then, they may remember the stress, anxiety, and all that, that I was dealing with. Making lists, trying to arrange everything, trying to remember all the important thingsโฆ
The move itself went rather well. It wasnโt the best weather, but my friends did an awesome job, and I tried to help as much as my overwhelmed brain was allowing me.
Things in the house didnโt all go as planned. Some may remember how hopeless I felt during the whole skirting boards saga? ๐ Triggeredโฆ
Slowly, I tried to adjust. I tried to make my house a home. To sort through the boxes and mess. To build a new routine. To give things places in the house and hope that it would work outโฆ
The house is a long way from ready, as there is a lot to do, and thereโs mostly just meโฆ And my energy and financial means. But I plan to stay there for quite some time to come, so hopefully I can slowly make the house better and better as time passes byโฆ ๐
Itโs been about 9ยฝ months now. Iโve gotten a routine, sort ofโฆ I know more things in the neighborhood. I have some very good contact with some of the neighbors. And now, my brain was just wonderingโฆ
All that stress of the move, of the preparations, of the arrangements, of the changes in the daily lifeโฆ Was it worth it? Did it improve my well-being? Did it change things in a positive way?
And, at the moment, my brain is leaning to the answer of โYes!โ.
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Especially knowing now that I need another hip surgery. Knowing that I donโt need to hobble up the stairs every time I wanna take Arwen out. Knowing there is some decent space for my mum, should she want to stay over for a while. I wanted to move out of the apartment due to several reasons, one being the stairs for Arwen. But now, it also seems that having no stairs (except for the upper floor, but everything is downstairs, like the bedroom and bathroom) is beneficial to me as well. ๐
I will love having the gardens, but at the moment Iโm just annoyed by themโฆ The area were in used to be a big field full of weeds. The building coop didnโt really do anything with the gardens, so after Iโve worked so many hours to get the weeds outโฆ It just took some days and some rain for them to be back in no time! I knowโฆ I need the special cloths that prevent the weeds from growing again, and theyโre bookmarked on my โthings I still needโ shopping list. So for now, my gardens are messy and full of weeds, and I really hate thatโฆ ๐
The first few months in the house, the humidity was awful! It was way too high, and it didnโt help that it was rather high outside as well. Some things got very molded or rustedโฆ Which was a big bummerโฆ And it was hard to deal with during bed time. My parents lend me a small dehumidifier, and that finally helped me to sleep better, as the bed was just so humid and ickyโฆ
Slowly the house started to dry, even to the extreme at times, as my humidity sensor sometimes goes as low as 28%, while it was around 75-85% when I moved inโฆ But that also means some cracks are forming, that will need to be fixed once the house is done with the โsetting inโ.
There is still loads to do. But, many things need either money or help, or a good day where my motivation is presentโฆ And with my leg being annoying as it is now, itโs even harder to find that motivation.
Some days I wish I would be gifted a shitload of money, excuse the language, and then Iโd be able to hire some handy folks to do all the chores for meโฆ
As mentioned, the gardens need some work, and I want to make some changes in the back one. The upstairs rooms, hallway, and stairway all need to be painted. But the house is incredibly high! And I tried working with a telescope paint roller, but my hands and shoulders were not really capable of itโฆ When the stairway is done (some day), Iโd like to have the staircase sanded and painted properlyโฆ And, should I really win a big jackpot, then I would not mind if someone would re-paint everything downstairs. As I did my best, but itโs not really that great, unfortunatelyโฆ
But I donโt think anyone will hand me over some wads of cash anytime soon, so Iโll just have to make due with what I have, and then slowly work through the list of chores. Maybe some friends will be kind enough to help me thenโฆ ๐
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Stillโฆ Even thought there is loads that still needs to be doneโฆ Itโs OK enough for now. We have a little house, weโre warm and dry, we have comforts and safety. There is food, drink, and means to relaxation. There are nice places to walk with Arwen, and even treat her to some swimming. ๐ฆ The gym is further than I was used to, most stores need a little drive as well. But, Iโm blessed to have Skoosh, and sheโs been taking me to all these places. ๐
I do hope that it wonโt take me too long to make the house even more of a home. I hope that some friends will be so sweet to lend me their help, and spend their time with me, to make the house even better. I know itโs a rental place so it will never be โmy ownโ. But with the way the Dutch laws are, I should be able to grow even older than I am now, in the new place. ๐
It was a challenge! It was super hard on me, and I dealt with some depression and autistic burnout, which caused my eating disorder to roar again, so now I need to focus on my weight again (which isnโt really making much progressโฆ ๐). Butโฆ I have time. I need to have patience. I have to find the end of a rainbow so I can find a bucket full of gold so that I have more fundsโฆ ๐ But it was all definitely worth itโฆ
To be continuedโฆ ๐
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