When I got my hip revision about 3,5 years ago, I was hoping it would last me at least 10-15 years. So when I recently got a CT scan, and the surgeon saw the resultsโฆ I got a diagnosis that didnโt excite me one bitโฆ I mean, it was good to know that my pains and discomforts had a valid reason, that it wasnโt โjust meโ and all thatโฆ I never thought that I would need to get my hip socket/bowl/cup (or whatever it is they wanna call it) reattached because it was letting looseโฆ ๐
I need to have my hip area tested for infections, as I had several after the surgery. I had three months of loads of heavy antibiotics to deal with, on top of the recovery of the surgery itself. And seeing that an infection can be a cause of the socket coming loose, the doc needs to be sure that the area is clean. If and when the area is clean, then the surgery will be scheduled. I have no idea how long this will all take, butโฆ People knowing me also know that in my brain, I am already trying to plan everything that I need to arrange and do when that surgery comes.
Iโve had several surgeries on my hip already. August 1997, January 2006 (with an extra OP in February 2006 due to infection and another one in November 2006 due to a screw that needed removal), October 2008 and then September 2021. And it seems that I can add somewhere in 2025 to the list as well. So I am no stranger when it comes to making arrangements for the surgery and the after care. But I do know that I will need help, once I get home from the hospital.
What I donโt know is how severe the disruption of my daily life will be. As they need to reattach the socket, and the surgeon did mention a possibility of them needing donor bone to fix it, I am guessing it will take at least 6 weeks to heal up. I donโt think I can drive, ot walk without crutches, or sleep in my own bed. So I canโt do the groceries. I canโt properly walk Arwen. I canโt get my daily fix at the gymโฆ
It will be hard on me, again, as I love to be able to โdo my thingโ. And after the surgery, I will need help to do the simple things. I will need assistance to live. And I hate that. And the silly thing is, I already dread not being able to visit the gym! I know how much weight I gained after the last surgery, as I ate loads but I barely moved, and I wasnโt allowed to exerciseโฆ ๐
So in my head, I am already planning. I will need to rearrange things in the living room so that a bed can be placed there. I will need to ask for help with groceries, with Arwen, with house choresโฆ I will feel like I am โno good for anythingโ for a while again, and that idea already mortifies me. I wanna be able to do โmy thingsโ and not be dependent on others. I want to โlive my lifeโ, but after the surgery, several weeks I wonโt have my life, I wonโt be meโฆ
I will be cranky, tired, in pain, annoyed with all the things that I canโt be doing. I will moan, mope, and cry. I will get angry and lash out. I wonโt like me. I never like myself after a major surgery.
I do hope that doing only half of a replacement surgery means that I am able to do more, and to do it faster. But I fear I will still get the same restrictions as I got after the last surgeries. And, I am already dreading it big time!
My brain is buzzing. Where will I fit the bed? Where should I leave the couch? How will I prepare best? Can I get in a better physical condition to be fitter when the time comes? Who can I ask for help, but how can I limit it, so I wonโt be a nuisance? How can I keep the help asking to a minimum, so people wonโt get tired of me?
I know it may be several months before I will actually get that surgery. But I โneedโ to be prepared. I โneedโ to plan. I have to make sure that I have some grip on the situation, even when it means that I need to let things go without having any grip on themโฆ If that makes any senseโฆ ๐ค
I guess this will be a topic that I will write more about in the upcoming monthsโฆ Better be preparedโฆ ๐
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Unknown parent • • •You know you've been doing too much knitting when you assume that anyone talking about "blocking" is referring to blocking their knitting...
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Unknown parent • • •Indeed! Blocking is our friend these days! ๐
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in reply to Pixy's Journey • • •@SeaFury
surely easier done virtually than spamming irl-places with flyers, even there's a sticky note hinting "I'll drop them straight to feed the bin", some might mail/visit them to actually say:
be resourceful than printing, paying workers, but papers be wasted than a marketing-strategy as they think?
masto yet seems clean for me in filtering the odd ones out
sven_md
Unknown parent • • •that or uhm, funny autocorrect-stuff
some might be funny, just to snack popcorn as filters take effect...
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or imagine if movies be behind-the-senes like...
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or fortnite-reference vs. irl
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doorspam withads that try to get through, or just a 'delete all (bills)', as they never arrivd to pay: out of sight - out of mind
or skipping time, waking timed
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