Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

A few months ago, I started a Matrix chat group, called "Our Journey".

I was/am new to using matrix and hosting a group, but some sweet folks were curious and they've joined. And it's been a lot of fun so far...

It's a chat without any main topic, but we do try to keep politics and religion out of it. We discuss our journey through life, with its ups and downs.

It's a place where you can vent, where you can chat safely, where you can get support, or share silly pet snaps. (I'm guilty of that from time to time 😇).

Our Journey on Matrix

Do feel free to join if you'd like. We don't mind if you want to lurk from time to time, but please do introduce yourself when you join, even when you don't know if you'll be staying. We'd like to know who we have in our midst. 😊 Most of us added (one of) our FediVerse handle to our user names, so you know who we are on the Fediverse.

There are people from Europe and Canada (as far as I know), so chats happen at different times. Sometimes it's busy sometimes it's quiet...

Have a lovely weekend folks 💜 and maybe we'll see you on Matrix. 😊

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#PixysJourney
#OurJourneyMatrixChat

A while ago, I was wondering about my gender, and I came across the term Autigender.

Cynni's Blog - Sexuality and gender

And for some reason, I've been thinking about this again. As I'm single and not active in the dating scene, I don't know if it's really something I should "worry" about. I'm just me... But then, as said, some days, I just wonder who that me is...

When I came across the term Autigender it kinda made sense. As I never had felt like I was "all female". Sure, I looked like one (with some of the annoying things as well, I could have done without the periods, and the start of the peri-menopause is here as well), but I never really felt like one... But I also didn't really feel like a man either, although in some aspects, I was a bit bummed about not being one...

I just wanted to be me, and enjoy all the things. But, back then, things were definitely more "gender assigned". I once got a Barbie and I hated it. I got a HotWheels car toy, and I loved it! 😂

But yeah, I was just wondering about it now... And I wondered if more people had heard about the term, and if they maybe felt like this as well... 🤔

Ah well... I am... Me... And I guess that's as weird as it will get 😂

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#PixysJourney
#Autigender

Cynni's Blog

2022-11-30 06:00:23

Sexuality and gender

Re-discovering who I really am.

Content warning: I will write about well, as the title says, sexuality and gender. All content is written from my own perspective ,my own feelings and experiences. I am not sharing this with intent of causing anyone any distress or harm. But if texts about these topics may upset you, best to skip this post. Hope to see you back at one of my many other posts on this blog site.

I was born as a girl. I had the body of a girl, the voice of a girl and I always saw myself as one. Growing up in the 80’s, things like gender were more black and white. You were either a male or a female. There was nothing else… Well, there were people who felt different, but it’s been shunned for a long time. The first reports of transsexuals in our country date from the 50’s. 1950’s that is… There’s nothing really known about it prior to WWII. So while there were trans people, like there were lesbians and gays, it wasn’t a topic being talked about a lot.

First time I became aware was when I saw the Dame Edna show. And when Freddie Mercury announced he was gay, later to be followed by starts like Elton John.

My parents never had anything against what we now call the LGBTQ+ people. They always talked openly about this. When I started my teens, I realized I wasn’t just heterosexual. People always assumed I would start liking and dating boys. But here I was, having huge crushes on both boys and girls. I felt like I never really loved a gender, I loved a person. But, most of my relationships were with men, so I was always seen as CIS female hetero. I never knew why those labels were so important, but they only seemed to have grown more important.

I do love how awareness has grown and shown us there are more genders, there are more sexualities, than I knew while growing up. I have been with a male, I have been married to a female. I have called myself a bisexual, because I dated both genders. Yes, there are more, BUT I see this a little differently. I still don’t really see genders, I just see people living their lives.

How someone portrays themselves is how I see them. Maybe there’s a penis, maybe there are boobs, maybe this person isn’t interested in sexuality, maybe they feel like they’re neither man or woman. And that’s where I have had some doubts as well.

Growing up with the black and white offset, I learned to think in male-female roles. But even though my body is a female one, I never really felt like a woman. I don’t like makeup, I hate dresses, I never felt the urge of my womb to have children. I love men’s clothing. I love my very short hair. I barely have any boobs and am often seen as a man. And while I used to be offended by people calling me sir, I now get it. I think…

I don’t fit in the female box, besides my body, because I don’t affirm the “gender roles”. I don’t fit in the male box, as I don’t have the body. I don’t feel like I am both. I don’t feel non-binary. And then I learned there was/is a gender name that came from neurodifferent people, especially autistics. It’s called “Autigender”.

I tried to Google it and many sites use terms that make my head go round. For a non-native-English person, the English terms can be a bit hard to grasp. Even as I already struggle with many in my own language… But I stayed on Google and found a few bits of explanation that I did understand.

I had never heard of “Neurogender”, or “Autigender” until I joined the Neurodifferent server on Mastodon. I became very interested as I was still looking for something that would suit me way better than the more generic “cis fem bi” bit, as I was seen most now.

So I’m looking. Asking about it. I understand it’s not easy for everyone to talk about it. But what I’ve read about autigender, it does suit many of my feelings. I have also read about people thinking you’d use your autism as a sexuality or gender and that’s wrong. But the way I experience people, I do think it’s very much intertwined with my autism. I see people. Not black and white. But in color, different, unique. I don’t see a gender, a sexuality, a cubicle that they need to fit in.

I’m all for exploring yourself. The only things I’m really against is with animals or underage people. That’s just a big nope to me.

Do you experience Neurogender or autigender? How does it feel for you? I really would love to learn more about it. If you don’t like sharing here but you’re on Mastodon, please find me there as @Cynni thanks!

I would love to learn and understand all the genders, the people behind them. I’m afraid I’ll never get it all, but I do wish to be inclusive, understanding and supportive. I know how it’s feels to search for your true self so… Yeah…

I also found this a very informative site: gaysifamily.com/lifestyle/bein….

Thank you for your interest in my blog. I really appreciate your visit. If you like my posts and you want to share them on your social media, please, feel free to do so! I’d be honored. If you don’t want to miss a thing, press the follow button (you’ll need to be a signed in WP user) or scroll down and leave your email below this post. If you are a WP user and you would like me to know you liked my post, press the star/like button please. Thanks ever so much! Of course comments are welcome as well, but spam won’t get shared, so don’t bother…

Please be wise and stay safe! I hope to see you back real soon again, feel free to drop in anytime! Wishing you all the best. With love, Cynni 🌹

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Are You Autigender? Here's What It Means, and How to Tell.

Some autistic people embrace the “autigender” label to express that their gender identity—usually, something other than cisgender—is related to their autism.

^{Suzannah Weiss (Men's Health)}

"Are they good enough to share?" 🤔

I take many snaps, especially since we got smart phones sigh decent cameras, as there is always one near.

I take snaps on vacation, I take snaps during walkies, just whenever I feel like it... But then... I so like to share some!

But... Which ones would be good enough? What I consider to be fun it nice could be fugly to others. What I think boring or bad, others could love... There's so many tastes and all when it comes to snaps.

Until now I've been sharing the "good ones" on my Pixelfed account. But I do want to share some of the others as well. So... I guess I'll slowly start doing that... The "normal and boring" ones, the ones that are OK to me, but could be nice to someone else...

I'll try not to spam the Pixelfed bits, also because I'll boost some of the snaps here as well. Ow who am I kidding?? I'll probably boost them all! 😂

I have several collections on my Pixelfed profile page. Those are my "main categories". So let's see if I can add some more...

To be continued... 📸

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#PixysJourney
#PixysSnaps
#Photography #AmateurPhotography

Some days... Are hard to get through...

I keep going because Arwen depends on me. Because I know the next day may be better. Because I hope that, if I'm stubborn enough, then it can become a better day after all...

For those of you that are "newly added" to my Friendos/circles, I'll give a slight recap of the "world of Cynni Pixy".

I'm AuDHD and I've always been a night owl. When I worked, the favorite shirts were the nightly ones, I just loved them. After the divorce, I lost all will to live. My time schedule was messed up, as was I. Then, I tried to get back into the "normal routine" hours, as most people have them. But... Covid19 was a thing, and all things normal vanished... And then, we got a new gym in town. And... They opened for 24/7. 🤩 So... I started experimenting. And, I got back into a nightly routine again. It's not always convenient when it comes to appointments that can't be done in the morning hours. But... I love the calm of night!

So, my "days" begin when the night begins. And I head to bed halfway through the afternoon. It works for me, most of the time. But these hours matter with what I share here now. 😉

Some days, when the nightly routine ends, when I've done the chores that I had to do, I just feel like going back to bed. Skip the rest of the day, with its sounds, lights, triggers... Skip the "waiting before I can go to bed again". Just sleep away the "boring" moments and live for the night again.

I try to stay awake. I stick to the routine as much as I can, because it does help me loads. But, some days, when the night passed by, when daylight is bright to my eyes, when all the people are out and about... That's when I'd like to hide away from the world and wait for the darkness again... 🦉

I know this probably won't make sense to many. And I struggle most when I deal with stress and/or anxiety (in this case, I need a puncture tomorrow in my hip area to test for infections near the metallic implant; and I've never had such a procedure, so I'm anxious about it, and the possible pain that I may experience). Or when my night was not restful enough. Or when my depression is trying to take hold of me again...

Today, I struggle... I'll watch some telly, write some for my blog, then walk Arwen and after that, I may try to play a game a bit... Distract myself...

But today, I can't wait to see the night again... 🌕

Fankoos 🌹 for making it to the end of this long babbling post... 😇 Have a lovely day, and remember to be kind, not just to others, but to yourself as well! 🌻

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#PixysJourney

Been busy on writing things for my blog... I always like to have posts ready in advance, because some days, I just can't seem to write anything, and other days, I can't seem to stop...

I made a screenshot of the upcoming posts. They should be shared every day around 7AM CET. There is a Masto account that drops the posts, which can be followed here: @Cynni's Blog

I asked Bing to create an Alt text for this image. As I'm still not sure how to add them properly here, I'll add the text in this post here:

The image is a screenshot of a mobile application displaying a list of scheduled blog posts under the section "Berichten" (which translates to "Messages" in Dutch). The screen is divided into four tabs at the top: "GEPUBLICEERD" (Published), "CONCEPTEN" (Drafts), "GEPLAND" (Scheduled), and "VERWIJDERD" (Deleted), with the "GEPLAND" tab currently selected. Each entry in the list includes a date, title, a brief excerpt or description, and a thumbnail image. The posts are scheduled from March 9th to April 10th. The titles and excerpts include topics such as "SilentSunday," reviews, personal reflections, and quotes. Each post also includes a link to a Flickr image. The thumbnails are colorful and varied, depicting abstract art, book covers, and other images. The list is scrollable, and a plus button at the bottom right corner suggests the option to add a new post.

**Brief Description:**
The image shows a list of scheduled blog posts in a mobile application, highlighting the variety of content planned for publication. This is interesting as it provides insight into the organization and planning of blog content, showcasing different themes and topics that will be covered in the future.

There are no posts scheduled for the Tuesdays. That's because then, I have my "Journal" posts, and I can't finish them until Monday end of the afternoon/Tuesday night. It's a bit hard to write in advance about things that have not happened yet. Hihi, my glass globe 🔮 isn't that good, even though my routine will make some things more predictable.

Well... Today is Sunday, so in a few minutes, my #SilentSunday post will go live. Often it takes a few minutes before it's visible to the Fedi timelines... 😇

Hope you'll all have a lovely day today! ☀️ Today should be one of the last sunny days here for a while, with a max temp of about 16°C.

Catch you later folks!

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#PixysJourney

#AmWriting #Blog #WordPress

The way Friendica works, if my friends interact with others, it also shows me some of those interactions on the time line.
Sometimes it's overwhelming, when there are many busy conversations, especially when more friends are participating in the thread.
Sometimes, it's just what I need...
I see someone liked a cute pet video.
I see someone shared a "Three Good Things" Toot that was really lovely.
Insew a beautiful snap that someone boosted...
And, I'll scroll by and give a like.
When I don't know the OP, it's harder for me to do more than liking it.
But it's my way to say "hey, I saw this and I enjoyed it".
I know I could boost it for others to enjoy as well...
But I'm still adapting to the boosting things. Even after 28 months on the Fedi, I still am a bit scared to boost things.. And... I don't know why!
I even feel weird when I boost my own stuff on this account...
I guess I'm still so used to the way algorithms worked (in the past, at least), that when a post got more likes, more people would be able to see it...

I've worked out how to make some circles, and when I am low on spoons, I just go for the closest Friendos. 💜 And when I need some scrolling, when I have more spoons, I'll hit the "everybody" tab and I'll enjoy what others have been enjoying.

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#PixysJourney
#FediFriends #Friendica

When I started on Masto, I was the biggest n00b and not sure what I was doing. I never joined the main site, as it didn't really appeal to me. I started with a few different instances, all very nice in their own ways, but I ended up becoming addicted to the beige cult... 😊 They had many characters and loads of lovely emojis, just my cup of tea...

I usually write long toots, and I know that's not something that many people are "into". And I uderstand. Some days, I just can't deal with too much info, so then the shorter toots appeal to me as well.

Some days, my ADHD is wild, and I can't seem to stop writing and sharing things. And, that's a reason why I blog and why I joined the instance with the high character count. 😊

And I wonder, if people are bothered by me sharing (too many) longer toots. I mean, I know that I can just share things any way I would like. People aren't obligated to read my babbling bits...😇 And I know I struggle to comment on toots/posts made by others, as I am always doubting if I will say the right things... I will like, I will boost, but it is hard to comment. And still, when I share my long toots, I always love it when kind people take the time to read and reply to them. So I feel I should comment more myself...

But, should I write shorter toots? Do I need to CW them when they get too long, so they won't take too much space in people's time lines when scrolling?

I do want to engage with folks, as it's part of how I can feel a wee bit connected to this weird world. But I am always doubting if I am doing the right thing. Should I share less? Should I have commented instead of just liking and maybe boosting it?

It's just my anxiety that sometimes gets the best of me and makes me worry if I am doing "this social media thing" right enough...

And here I am, babbling again! 😂

Anywhoo...... Thanks to all that keep up with me, that keep chatting with me, liking and boosting my toots. It really feels very nice to "be seen" in this big and weird world. 🌸 Fankoos!

🧚🏼‍♀️ 🍀 💜 🐾

#PixysJourney

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

I've caught up with most of my Masto socials, and I boosted all that I shared there. And I tried to boost some of my friend's toots as well.

I know I mostly boost from this account, and sometimes I wonder if I should keep it like that, to "collect" the toots of the Pixy in the Fedi... But should I start writing more here as well? But what would there be to say, that I've not already shared on my journey account, my gaming account, or my fit account? Or the snaps that I share on Pixelfed...

I don't want to repeat myself too often. It would make me feel silly, like I'm getting senile 😂 and I don't know if I have the spoons to even do that...

It can be a curse at times, to have a brain that needs the separation of the things so much. To have the need for different accounts for different subjects... I wonder if things would be easier if I could just have one account for everything... 🤔 But then, I guess it would still be hard, as I do enjoy the options of Friendica, but I also love the emojis that beige.party offers me... (I do love the silly custom emojis, I really miss them here...).

Well, walking the treadmill, working up sweat, watching the last few episodes of season 2 of Cold Case.

It's a weird night when the gym suddenly is closed without notice... I still can do most of my routine, but it's slightly off... Which makes it feel all differently somehow... 😊

Catch you later folks! #TZAG it's Friyay folks! ☀️

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#PixysJourney

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

I'm still trying to get a grip with how Friendica works. I mostly use it from my phone (or tablet sometimes), so the interface is a bit different from the website I guess.

It can be confusing where to find certain options. And I wanted to make some circles, so I could easily filter out some close friends.

But maybe I was doing it wrong, but I needed the Racoon app to get it done, as I could not get it to add a circle, or let me add people to it, from the original web app. I thought it would be as easy as "select the closest Friendos, click options, add to circle, give name to circle, and done!". But yeah...

Either on did it wrong, or it just isn't that "simple" as it should have been, according to my brain... 😇

But I got my circles made. Which is also challenging with adding folks. Even if you're already connected, you still need the whole @ to find them. But, when you add the @ in front of the handle, like it is usually done in Fedi, well, it has issues finding the people then. Which seems weird, as I was already connected to them, so it should have been "known" tags...

Well... I managed! 😂 Hopefully this will make it easier to quickly check the new posts by friends when I have little time... 🤞🏻

But... I have to admit this... Ruud has been doing good job, as the node has been online more, and has less delays!! 😁 Maybe, some day, we can get really spoiled and get more custom emojis to play with? 😇 I've been so spoiled with all of them on Beige.party...

We're getting closer to home, so let's send this message and walk on... My fingers are getting a wee bit cold...

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#PixysJourney

Been working on my blog a bit. 😊

Next focus should be to create some new Thursday Quote posts and Silent Sunday posts. Those seem like short and easy ones, but the usually take up some time. I try to create the quote images, with help from Bing AI, Pixlr and AddText. The Sunday ones, I need to find a good image and make sure I add the Alt text to it as well. 😊

The quote ones I usually make on my phone, as it has all the apps I need to make them. The silent Sunday ones are usually a mix of phone and laptop. 😊

Hopefully, I'll be able to visit the zoo some more again, as animals make quite nice subjects for the Silent Sunday posts... Or, at least I like to think so...

Currently riding the hometrainer some. But my leg isn't all in it, which is annoying. 😔 So I'll probably head down soon, work on my blog a bit and then have some food... Walk with Arwen, and seeing the vacation of bestie is over, she'll probably call me again on her way to her job...

Hopefully I can get some cleaning done after that, before I have to leave the house again.

I'll head to Lidl around 7:45, as it should open at 8, and I wanna be early. Hopefully they'll have all I need and I'll be done quick and all that.

~~~
Alt text by Bing:

The screenshot depicts the interface of a mobile application tailored for blog management, presented in Dutch. At the top of the screen, the header reads "Berichten" (Messages), with three navigational tabs: "GEPLAND" (Scheduled), "CONCEPTEN" (Drafts), and "VERWIJDERD" (Deleted). The "GEPLAND" tab is active, as indicated by its bold formatting. Below, a chronological list of scheduled blog posts is displayed, with each entry consisting of a publication date, a title, a snippet of the content, and a thumbnail image.

The posts are organized from March 2nd to March 21st and showcase a variety of themes. Notable entries include:

• 2 March: "#FitIn2025 - February edition" with a reflection on personal progress in the first month of the year.
• 5 March: "Brain is everywhere! 🧠" discussing the emotional impact of an upcoming surgery.
• 7 March: "At the zoo 🦁," expressing enthusiasm for zoo visits and mentioning conservation efforts.
• 8 March: "Gaming again 🎮," an admission of casual gaming enjoyment and embracing 'baby settings.'
• 10 March: "Observe, adapt, adjust," reflecting on finding routine after a move.
• 12 March: "Review - Teufel NC headphones 🎧," hinting at a detailed review of the product and its service.
• 15 March: "Silly 'little' feelings," describing personal hopes tied to previous living situations.
• 19 March: "Heading towards spring 🌻," anticipating the arrival of spring in early March.

Other entries are hashtag-driven, such as "#SilentSunday" on multiple dates, or feature external links like the "Thursday Book Quote" post on March 6th. Each snippet conveys the unique and personal voice of the author, aiming to engage readers with a mix of personal anecdotes, reflections, and thematic explorations. The user interface is clean and structured, supporting effective blog management.
~~~

Well, the upcoming blog posts are usually shared around 7AM CET. There is a Fedi account that shares the post, well a preview with a link to it, and I usually try to boost it when I can from here. 😉

Hope you're all having a good start of the new week. They say that our weather should be a bit more lovely the next two weeks, so fingers crossed 🤞🏻 for that... 😇

Catch you all later folks!

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#PixysJourney

#AmWriting #Blog #WordPress

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

#Today...
...was definitely not too bad...

I've had some struggles. But! I also achieved some goals that I had set out...

I went to the gym, as I (almost) always do. I had planned to do some strength exercises, but I settled for a seated bike ride and a one km walk on the treadmill.

I walked a SniffiVerse™ walkies with Arwen. We didn't go the longer route, but it was a bit longer than the shortest one. The weather was decent enough, which make it a nice walk.

I used my treadmill and walked 3,5km, most of it with a 3% incline. It went OK enough. But I miss being able to walk a bit faster...

Did the laundry. The dishwasher did it's thing too. Connected the HDMI splitter, just need to test it still. Swept the floors, there was loads of sand, again...

Had several walks with Arwen today. Including the treadmill walks, I got to 22k steps at the moment I'm writing this. So it's not too bad at all!

I'm watching some more Person Of Interest before heading to bed. I'm rather tired, but it's a bit too early still, so gotta wait for a while longer...

Hope that you're all having a good day today! #TZAG 🌻 Catch you all when I'm back at the gym again! 💪🏼

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#PixysJourney

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

I've got many (good) friends across my Mastodon accounts. For which I'm very grateful 🌸. I've slowly added some of those lovely Friendos to this account, so I don't have to miss anything by them! 😁

But I'd also love to meet new people through this account. I've followed the hashtags like #DogsOfMastodon and #ActuallyAutistic. And I occasionally like the posts I see with those hashtags.

But, it's hard for me to actually start following someone new. Like there is this big threshold that I don't dare to cross without being invited first... And I always feel like I'm "invading someone's space" when I send a follow request. Even though my brain knows that that's what social media is all about.

Somehow, it's easier for me to accept a follow request, check out their profile, and follow back if I'm interested in what they have to share. Sometimes I feel "rude" as well, when someone wants to follow me, and I don't feel interested enough (yet?) to follow them back. If that makes any sense... 🤔

I don't need a long list of followers. Of course, I hope my writing and sharing of snaps and vids, that there are people out there that enjoy it. But, I've always said, I rather have ten "followers" (friends) that actually care, than 50 followers that never interact...

I struggle with replying a lot. I can reply on a reply on one of my posts. I can like posts that I see. I'm slowly learning to boost more of the posts by my friends. But commenting on their posts is a lot harder. I always fear I write the wrong things. I always think that no one is actually waiting for someone like me to reply. And I know... It's just my fear/anxiety about "getting the social situation wrong". Like I've done so many times before... 😔

So, if I like and boost your posts, that means a lot (at least to me). And should I be brave enough to comment, and should I get it wrong, please keep in mind that I never have any bad intentions. I would not even dare! 🫣

Anywhoo... Long story short... Yeah, ik weird, 😂. But also, I'm hoping to make new friends that love dogs, gaming, fitness, and are maybe a bit NeuroSpicy 🌶️ as well. (don't need to connect with all these topics, that's just me... 😇).

Fankoos 🫶🏻 for reading!

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#PixysJourney

Little Friendica update from me to my lovely Friendos 💜

I don't wanna jinx anything.... 🤞🏻 But the node seems to be online a bit more these days... Which is very nice indeed! 😁

It also means I can start using this account more to boost my different accounts here to make this more of a "Pixy's hub" thing, like I was planning to do.

I've already followed several good Friendos and some followed me back, fankoos 🫶🏻 so much for that.

As things are now, I will keep using the separate Masto accounts, as my OCD treats need things to be "nicely sorted in the right places". But if folks prefer to just follow "one of me", then this would be the right account for "all things Pixy". 😊

I'm not about the numbers, so I will understand that my other accounts may lose you as a follower there. But l do my best to follow you from all my accounts, and I wanna boost most things by others, by you, from this account as well. 😊

If I haven't followed you yet through this account and you think I've missed ya when I was adding folks (my brain has been rather foggy a lot lately), please drop me a toot/post/DM so I can correct this! 😁

Fankoos 🫶🏻 to all for enduring the sillyness of my "OCD needs" on here.

Will catch you all soon again, I hope!

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#PixysJourney

Edit: saw a silly typo

Hmmm 🤔
I am lying on the couch, as I felt a little cold, so huddled under a blankie with some more
Person Of Interest .
But I feel like I should be writing some for my blog.
Am just afraid that I'll share the same a lot these days, as my brain seems to be caught in a loop. And I do like a good routine... But... Not like this. 😔
I did book an appointment with the GP to discuss my ADHD meds, but to find a day and time that suited me (there weren't too many slots available), it means it's just over three weeks from now.
I guess if I would go there and ask at the assistant's desk, maybe they would have am earlier suitable moment. But I don't feel like my ADHD issues are pressing enough to need a "quick" appointment.
I've dealt without meds for many years. But I guess I do benefit from what the meds can do for me when they work properly... 😊
Let's get my tablet now and see if I can empty my brain a bit in a blog post.
And I hope that I get warm and relaxed enough so that I can enjoy some gaming. I do miss it. But somehow, there seems to be a high threshold that's holding me back somehow... 🤔

Hope you all are having a good time! #TZAG 🌸 catch you all later!

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Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

Sending out a post (do posts have special names on Friendica, like toots on Masto? 🤔) from here.

I try to boost my other accounts here, so there is a mix of "all things Cynni Pixy" on this node. And I'll try to occasionally write from here as well.

I'm slowly trying to find my Masto friends on here, so that I can boost their posts/toots from this place as well. And I'm hoping to meet new folks to follow as well.

I'm following a few hashtags here, and I want to try to put them in a collection, so that they don't mix with the posts by my friends. 😊 Let's see if I can make such a collection, as it would be nice to have a separate time line for the hashtags that I wanna see posts from.

Hope you're having a good week, so far! 😉 Happy Wednesday, or hump day 🐪 to those that celebrate! Or, to some, it's a third Monday, or so I'm told. So whatever you "celebrate" 😉, I hope it will be a good day!

Catch you all later!

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Yesterday I boosted a Toot about some of the series that I've seen many times.

Toot about some series I've seen way too often, but not often enough yet...

When I opened the Prime app for some serie to watch to fall asleep with, it showed me that Cold Case was back to stream! And yeah! That one should be in my list as well...

There are many series that I've watched more than once, but not as often as the ones in the original Toot. Maybe some say, I'll try to list those as well to share. 😊

Anywhoo... Just wanted to say that I'm back to watching Cold Case before bed time and it's still a great show!

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2025-02-24 09:42:03

Re-watching this series, Person of Interest, for the umpteenth time... And this one episode, I *know* is coming.... And I always cry... Always.... I'm just a sucker I guess...

It made me think of series that I've watched many times, and many have episodes that make me sob... And still, I keep re-watching them...

Some series that I've seen many, many times, are:
Downton Abbey
Crimonal Minds
Bones
Rizolli & Isles
Castle
Person of Interest
Madame Secretary
The Good Wife
The Mentalist

There are others that I've binged a lot, but these are the ones that I can recall of the top of my head. (and that brain is a bit fuzzy at the moment, also due to me sobbing due to that silly sad episode)

Ah well.... Guess this is also a little info about me and what I like to watch when I am not feeling too well, and I need some "safety" in my telly distractions.

Hope you're all having a good time! And, did you see anything in this list that you like as well? 😉

Ow, I did re-watch some Star Trek as well, but not recently (TNG, DS9 & Voy, mostly).

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Looks like world is back for now. 😊
I've been able to boost and like and I didn't see any time-outs or unavailable bits...
Fingers crossed 🤞🏻 that it'll stay up for now.
Still haven't seen the PeerTube Toot from the last video that I uploaded several hours ago.
I shared the link from the other Friendica account, but I'll drop the link here as well.

Rays at Burger's Zoo Ocean - PeerTube link

I wanted to play a game now, but my brain is a bit distracted, so I'll watch some TV first...

It's wet here, but not cold with 10°C. We just had a wet walkies and now we're both relaxing on the couch... Have a good Saturday folks!

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Pixy's Vids

2025-02-22 04:34:17

Burger's Zoo Ocean - Rays

Different sorts of beautiful rays, swimming around the Burger's Zoo Ocean exhibition, passing the tunnel that we as guests can walk through to see all the beauty of these lovely creatures.

🎥 21/02/2025 Burger's Zoo, Arnhem, The Netherlands 🇳🇱, edited with YouCut, Music by Albert-Paul from Pixabay.

Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

I'm slowly filling up my Friendica feed with all the friendos that I made on my Masto accounts. Don't wanna miss your lovely toots when I'm out and about on Friendica.

Sorry if all my follows/accounts are too confusing!

If this node, as they call a Friendica instance that, is up and running properly, I'll try to make this the "Pixy central" where I boost the stuffs from my other accounts. So if you just wanna follow this account then, I'd totally understand! 😁

It's a warmer night now, with 10°C, what a change! Arwen is walking slowly, but she's enjoying the sniffs where she can. It will be a short walk, so I will try to enjoy it to the fullest. 😊 With the zoo visit later today, I do hope to get my steps in anyway.

Owwww I do miss the custom emojis here on Friendica... Does this part of the Fedi support custom emojis??? 🤔 Could the admin be persuaded to add them when the node is up and running properly? 🤔 Hihi...

So, if you get another follow from Pixy, that's just me, trying to find all the lovely Friendos 💜 here on Friendica...

Let's see if I can write a bit for my og now! Catch you all later folks!

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Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 💜

(Ow how I miss all the lovely Beige custom emojis here... 😇)

If all goes well, I will want to use this account to boost content from my other Fedi accounts. I know I have many, I'm very much aware of the silly way that my brain seems to function when it comes to dealing with social media bits...

But I know it must be confusing (or exhausting even, I understand that too) for my friends to follow me "here, there and everywhere". So, with all the abilities that Friendica has, I'm hoping to make this my "main visibility account".

I'll Toot from the usual accounts, so I can keep my kinda OCD brain happy, and then I'll boost the "important" (we all wanna feel like we've got meaningful things to share? 😉) things through this account.

My idea behind this: to have all things Pixy snared in one place. So that folks that are tired of my multitude of accounts could just good this one and see all my craziness in one place.

Should people want to do that, I understand them unfollowing my other accounts. Or muting them. As no one wants to see my brain farts everywhere, again and again! 😂 So understand completely.

If this instance keeps working properly, it also means that I don't need to boost my other accounts on Mastodon anymore, as I will have this place to boost all things Pixy.

I need to learn how to work with circles. I don't know if you can set a boost to just be shared in a circle, or if a boost on here is account wide. But I do know that I can make circles for my friends that follow me here, and I can write updates for just folks in a circle, so to keep them more private, in a way. 😉

So that's the idea behind the Friendica account. Hopefully it means that my socials may become less messy to those that follow me! And I'm really grateful got the sweeties that kept adding my new accounts to their following lists! 💜 That really meant a lot! 🌹

Alright, now to ride my hometrainer a bit and watch the new episode of Found. I think it may be the last one of this season? 😔

Fankoos 🫶🏻 for being my friends! I really appreciate it, as it makes me feel less alone in this big, sometimes scary, world.

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Enjoying a nice choco cappuccino after a wee bit of cleaning. Need to clean some more after walkies, but my hands are a bit painful.
When we moved into the new house, the humidity was awfully high, above 80% at times, making my health struggle a lot.
Now, during our first winter here, the humidity is at 30%. Which is too low...
The forecast says we'll get some warmer weather, but with rain and all that, but then it's easier to open a few windows and let some outside air in... At the moment, the outside humidity is at 63%, which is rather low, as it's been above 85% a lot lately...
Ah well.... Let's just get through the day and all that...
First some choco while re-watching Person Of Interest. Then a walk with Arwen.
Hopefully DHL will soon send an update about their delivery, and, fingers crossed 🤞🏻, it will be an early one...

Have a lovely hump day 🐪 to Llntbag celebrate!

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And it's back!

Friendica.world has been inaccessible for little over 4 hours tonight. Which is a big shame... It's been happening ever since I've joined... And I am a crazy night owl 🦉 who loves to be active online during the night. Which is rather hard when the platform is offline for most of that time...

A few days ago, I saw a post by @Ruud that they knew about the issue and were working on it. But I've not seen any more updates on the topic since then. Or maybe there were updates and I missed them?

I love the rules and guidelines that friendica.world stands for. I love the options that it offers, and it's an easy to remember weblink, to share with (non) Fedi friends. I really want to get to know the app better, start to figure out how to use the circles best, how to make channels and work with those, but it's harder to play with these things when the site is down for several of my "active" hours.

I have faith that they will find a resolution for the errors that keep happening through the night, and that this will be/stay my main Friendica account. So hopefully someone out here will know more about the issues and if they're getting closer to fixing them... Fingers crossed 🤞🏻

Well, let's see if I can write a bit for my blog now, after my long babbling over here. Wishing you all a happy third Monday! 😉 Or happy hump day 🐪 to those that celebrate. And thanks in advance for any updates about the "currently unavailable" situation happening at night...

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